Need To KnowAcross the landscape of my dreamsNeed To Know by AlecBell
I see an empty sky remote and glowing.
All that I might be is shrouded,
swallowed in a cloud of unknowing
Too often I have tried, only to fail
exhausted by a passionate need to know
Anguish is the only crop for me to reap,
the only crop that I could ever sow.
Indesicion 2This is it, I think to myself- slowly shutting my bedroom window behind me. This was the party that comes once in a lifetime- the one that everything depended on. Christian was going to be there too, and he said we were supposed to go somewhere afterwards- somewhere romantic, he said. And we all know what that means- sex. And man was I nervous. My body was shaky as I crept down the streets to the music- to the light of the night, and maybe of my life. The music got significantly louder when I opened the door. Stepping into the throng of people was like becoming one with a beast- you do what it does, you say what it says, and you think what it thinks. Everyone moved as one, intoxicated by the music and alcohol. I was finally expelled by the monster into the kitchen. The homeplace of the stash, the ethanol, the beer. I poured myself a glass of water- lame I know. But this was a night that I wanted to actually remember forever. Thirstily drinking half of it down, I gulped down the other hIndesicion 2 by Siren-Badru
Cannot UnderstandI cannot say that I understand how you came to be acquainted with this feelingCannot Understand by Siren-Badru
For I don't
And maybe can say that I never will
These little pieces that you let out
They tell me stories
And none of it makes any sense
But yet it all fits together as a whole anyway
A whole that I don't know what it is
And nor do I need to
If you wanted me- or anyone else- to know
You would speak, and spill
So I will just give you my friendship
Since I cannot give my understanding
And this is not the friendship of closest friends
Because I don't know if you would accept that
But I am here- for whatever you need me to be.
A box to hide things in
A book to ramble long speeches in if need be
All I can say is here I am
And hello stranger.
Not My Sword to SwingCannot I just say forget it all?Not My Sword to Swing by Siren-Badru
Cannot I just say avenge yourself on me?
Cannot I not just give up and let go of everything?
I have too much to bear,
Too much to hold,
And none of it is mine to drop,
Even for a second.