myth of Sysyphus

"I don’t know what to do today.
Should I cut myself open and pour my heart on these pages?
Or should I sit here and do nothing,
nobody’s asking anything of me after all?
Should I jump off the cliff that has my heart beating so
and develop my wings on the way down?
Or should I step back from the edge,
and let the others deal with this thing called courage?
Should I stare back at the existential abyss that haunts me so
and try desperately to grab from it a sense of self?
Or should I keep walking half-asleep,
only half-looking at it every now and then
in times in which I can’t help doing anything but?
Should I kill myself or have a cup of coffee?"

-A Camus